Dignity and Grace?

So much for handling things well. I guess I am not who Sue thinks I am. Dignity and grace aren't exactly the words I would use to describe me at this point. I am still praying and trusting that God will bring something good from all of this. But, at this point, I don't see it happening. I feel like I have fallen back from years of healing that had taken place. Beauty from ashes (a painting of my life)was a blessing...now it is a trigger because the fire has burned down the forest a second time and once again...the beauty that was created is nothing but ashes. Somebody broke this butterfly's wings.