The Monster

God has given me the awesome privilege of leading a young abused woman to Christ this year. This wonderful friend whom I call my sister has had a very difficult life. She has some disorders of her mind and can make a person a bit nervous and even frightened of her because of the things that she does as a result of her illnesses. I was so afraid to reach out to her but God kept putting her in my life. Finally I surrendered and asked God to help me reach out to her and to help me to love her because I knew I couldn't do it in my strength.

He answered my prayer...as He always does. Seeing her progress just because she has found love has blessed me beyond words. She still has issues with her illnesses and I am praying for her in that area. Regardless, God has taken my fear of her away and replaced it with love and compassion. She has become a wonderful tool of growth in the areas of patience,love, kindness, faithfulness, and compassion in my life. I have truly been blessed because of her.

Recently she gave me a book of poetry that she has written. It is a progressive book from before she met Christ until today. She talked about the monster living in her..lying to her, controlling her, abusing her. She talked about why she feels like she does an why she does what she does. She talked about a new friend that God has blessed her life with recently. I finally got inside her head and I seem to have a better understanding of what she goes through. I am so thankful for that. I also got to see how much her life was changed when she asked Jesus in her heart. She is not one who displays any emotion. It's hard to read her sometimes. But, the poetry really helped me to see that God truly is blessing her life.

Tonight I met another young woman like the first one only her illnesses seem to be worse. I don't know what to do to help her. I only know is that she needs to feel God's love and tonight I had the opportunity to be used in just that way. I held her in my arms and she wept so bitterly. I had no solutions to offer her for her problems. I saw her situation as hopeless. But, with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. God reached out to me through her tonight as my heart broke as I cried with her.

There is a monster and his name is satan. God please deliver these ladies from the lies he puts in their heads all day every day. Deliver them from their fears, self hatred and abuse. Let them see their worth in YOU! I want to be Your hands in their lives. Help me...use me! They need You! You are their only hope! Help me show them You in all that I do in their lives.

In Jesus Name,

Amen